Monsters

Monsters come and go in the work, it's a way to push the image past what is beautiful and into another space entirely. I've thought of them as a series in a way, the ones that went this way. Kids love monsters, it's an extreme place a heightened emotional state. I think of kids emotions being a lot more fluid and powerful they can really take up the space in a room and shift dramatically from tears to laughter. I've always been interested in this emotional shift, I remember the first time I saw Rosemary's Baby and the scene in the apartment as I remember it now, after the party Guy is shaming and gaslighting Rosemary and she's in pain saying to him, the pain is in her belly, and he wont let her see another doctor and it's just this immense suffocating feeling of dread, then suddenly the release, when she feels the baby move. That smile in the scene and the music begins and it completely lifts and becomes bearable again almost joyful. I was watching the film alone in the dark in my San Francisco apartment and I felt it too, my whole body changed from tense pathos to release and bliss. The monster is still inside but it becomes bearable and joyful even.